I try to write down this pain
But its all useless all in vain
The world around is so surreal
You cant be gone it cant be real
Did you think of me before you left
Or of the promises that had to be kept
Was it painful for you or painless
How can you leave me in this mess
Without you what will i do
Who could fill this void but you
And now you're gone is what people say
"Let it be a dream" is what i pray
And when my eyes are closed
I still see your face for sure
Deep in my heart i know
That i'm forever stuck in this low
Where no joy would be real
And it still wont be a deal
Cause i will act like its fine
This pain has to be mine
So i'll spend each day like any other
Like i simply haven't lost my mother!
But its all useless all in vain
The world around is so surreal
You cant be gone it cant be real
Did you think of me before you left
Or of the promises that had to be kept
Was it painful for you or painless
How can you leave me in this mess
Without you what will i do
Who could fill this void but you
And now you're gone is what people say
"Let it be a dream" is what i pray
And when my eyes are closed
I still see your face for sure
Deep in my heart i know
That i'm forever stuck in this low
Where no joy would be real
And it still wont be a deal
Cause i will act like its fine
This pain has to be mine
So i'll spend each day like any other
Like i simply haven't lost my mother!
Let us imagine a world without kindness. You are kind when you smile at a stranger, help someone before an examination and stand up for someone innocent. Sometimes, kindness seems the obvious thing to do. At other times, it doesn't come as easily. Let me share with you a personal story to show how important kindness is in our daily lives.
I was having uncordial relations with a so and so friend of me. I used to dislike her a lot. She was rude, authoritative and abusive. In short, she was a person who would try to influence you without you liking it. We grew apart. First, I would not be reluctant to do anything for her. Then, as time passed I grew wary of her. Initially, I liked her presence, then, I started disliking it. In short, she meant nothing to me. We were not fond of each other anymore.
Then, I dawned upon me to be kind and nice to her. I didn't mean bad, I just wanted less enemies. First I tried outwardly to please her. Then naturally God gave me an ability to be loving and kind. Then one day, without her asking I explained to her how to her admission in a college of good standing. I keenly guided her through her application procedure. She would call me to take advice every now and then. Instead of being irritated I helped her to the best I could. I started liking her even I reluctantly might admit. This is because she would talk really politely and sweetly. Afterall, I was the light in darkness for her. I realised my kindness had pulled us together. Had I been selfish and retaliatory, I would have lost a good friend.
Now, it was her turn to repay. She started standing by me I being a meek person by nature. I realised I had someone close in this world. Always remember, kindness is the best tool against your enemy as well as for your friend.
I was having uncordial relations with a so and so friend of me. I used to dislike her a lot. She was rude, authoritative and abusive. In short, she was a person who would try to influence you without you liking it. We grew apart. First, I would not be reluctant to do anything for her. Then, as time passed I grew wary of her. Initially, I liked her presence, then, I started disliking it. In short, she meant nothing to me. We were not fond of each other anymore.
Then, I dawned upon me to be kind and nice to her. I didn't mean bad, I just wanted less enemies. First I tried outwardly to please her. Then naturally God gave me an ability to be loving and kind. Then one day, without her asking I explained to her how to her admission in a college of good standing. I keenly guided her through her application procedure. She would call me to take advice every now and then. Instead of being irritated I helped her to the best I could. I started liking her even I reluctantly might admit. This is because she would talk really politely and sweetly. Afterall, I was the light in darkness for her. I realised my kindness had pulled us together. Had I been selfish and retaliatory, I would have lost a good friend.
Now, it was her turn to repay. She started standing by me I being a meek person by nature. I realised I had someone close in this world. Always remember, kindness is the best tool against your enemy as well as for your friend.
"Why is grief so saddening?
Why is pain so piercing?
Why does the heart ache so much?
Why is this torment and wretchedness turning me numb and rendering me senseless? It seems even the clouds want to cry to their fullest!!
Thunder wants to deafen us with its shrieks. The sun wants to hide its light over this act of darkness.
Yes its raining both inside and out but wait these rains are different.The rain outside is enjoyed by all and the inside only by the pillow.
The air of despair is so prevalent.It seems that the clamor of silence will stain my ears with blood.
I want to fight with the echo of laughters in the neighborhood. I want to spoil each and every smile.Yes I want to shout on the top of my lungs that how it feels when someone leaves.Leaves for good with no promise of coming back.Yes it feels like the end of this world and not the end of life.”
She ended with a sob with her fingers bit due to fear.
He could see her eyes reddened with affliction.He could hear the struggle to breathe.The struggle to live.
But it strengthened his fury.He got more violent and hard with every tear coming out of her reddened eyes.
And there came those mocking words out of his evil mouth.
" Huh.. But you are still alive honey.You still breath.You are not dead.I can feel it."
But to his surprise these words were deficient in shattering her wretched soul and bleeding heart.
She answered,"I WAS BORN DEAD. I opened my eyes in world of dead.Where dead rule dead.Where dead kills dead. And where dead die to add to the torment of dead.Where dead mourns over life. Where death grants life.Where death harbingers the onset of journey of foreverness. To return to their Lord to get what they forwarded. I'm not alive friend.I'm not alive.Do you know we are breathing in a world of sorrow. A world from where HUMANITY had an early leave.And after the acceptance of that very leave the office got barren for good.Life,her soul friend, was too fragile to suffer this loss.Thus eventually she also left us alone.And her departure darkened the whole canvas.Now the death of no-one is distressing. No-one!! And let me tell you another thing,she said half laughing, Nobody mourned over the death of life because there was no one left alive to cherish the sadness.
And my tears were in the remembrance of humanity and not on the departure of another dead.”
And with these words she left
R.I.P HUMANITY
R.I.P LIFE
And there lie the dead man awed and stunned by the words of a dead girl.
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And I am Home
Photography: Javeria Iqtidar
Image Manipulation: Nabeel Ahmad
Darling,
This is us, colliding,
setting ourselves on fire.
This is you, becoming my first love,
and then my first headache.
This is us, needing each other,
while knowing how toxic we are.
This is you, smiling at me,
and me, engulfed in your warmth.
This is our love, suffocating us,
while we watch, and watch, and watch.
This is me, saying "enough,"
and taking off my rose-tinted glasses,
This is a flower with bloodstained petals,
covered in your fingerprints
This is you making a show of replacing me.
This is me, not caring.
This is it, I surround myself with myself,
and darling, I am home.




